Thursday, June 26, 2008

How much longer?

Well I am 40 weeks pregnant today and I had my doctors appointment. Sadly enough nothing is happening and the doctor booked me for another appointment next week. I am really disappointed but I know there is nothing I can do about it, which is almost more disappointing because if there was something I could do I'd be sure to do it. Oh well, I know that the baby will come when he's supposed to. It would be more convenient for all of the families and for Brian if I had this baby now, but I suppose that I'm just going to have to get over that and not worry about disappointing anybody because it's not my fault and it's hard enough to cope with a prolonged pregnancy without worrying about everybody else. I have nothing else to write because my whole mind is consumed with this, hopefully next time I write I can say that I've had this baby and I can forget about this miserable waiting period. At least the baby is healthy and things are going well. I don't want to have to be induced anyways so I'm glad the doctor is letting me wait even though waiting is torture, the good news is it has to end some time.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Still Waiting

Well, I am now almost 40 weeks pregnant and I know that every woman feels this way but honestly I don't feel like I can be pregnant for 1 more second without going insane! I am due on Thursday June 26 and I don't even want to wait that long but I'm so sure that I'll be late anyways just because it would be my luck. I feel like a ticking time bomb as well, and I wonder with every new ache in my body (aches are very common apparently when you are this huge pregnant) if it's time. Of course it never is. So, I am trying to occupy my time; my list of things to do includes making a load of meals to put in the freezer, doing laundry and anything else I can think of to keep my mind off of being pregnant still. There should be special therapeutic groups for women who are waiting to have their babies, we should all just be able to go and vent and play games and eat, I love to eat. I did finally pack my hospital bag and now it is sitting in my van waiting for the very exciting day when I go into labor and need to use it.

Brian is being a very good husband and doing his best to hide his excitement and impatience because he knows how badly I want to be done too. He keeps telling me how beautiful I look and as much as I don't believe him, part of me still does, and it really helps me feel great! I am so lucky to have him. He keeps me laughing as well, and as long as I can keep laughing I think I'll make it even if I have another 3 weeks of pregnancy ahead of me (Oh! 3 weeks, that is an eternity)!

Friday, June 13, 2008

One week at a time...

I am already 38 weeks pregnant! When I look at the time that has gone by I don't feel like it has gone fast or slow, I feel like it's done and is still doing both. At times I feel like I will never be done being pregnant and at other times I feel like it hasn't been long enough. Of course, this baby will be coming in the next couple of weeks so I must continue preparing. All I really have left is to pack a hospital bag, and for whatever reason I can't make myself grasp the fact that it could happen any time now and that I do need to pack this bag. It still seems so far off. It's a very unreal experience. I'm certain it will become reality when it's time, but right now it still feels like I have 9 months of pregnancy to wait through.
Brian is all better from our shingles scare. It turned out it really was the bacteria infection and it cleared up with the antibiotics within the week so we are both quite relieved.
In other news we bought a camcorder! We are so excited! I can't wait to use it to video tape my baby and capture his precious moments! Now I just need to learn how to use it! Brian has figured it out (just like a man) but I haven't taken the time yet so I must begin doing that since I will be the one at home with our baby.
Farewell until next time... perhaps there will be a baby in next weeks post but more than likely I will still be waiting!